Monday, March 19, 2012

Thirty Days After the Super Show 4 in Singapore

Photos courtesy of xmakyu and heeemmy

 We are packing up the blog and we will not be posting anymore.

It was a great journey...

And it has not even ended

because it's always an AND


Photos courtesy of xmakyu and heeemmy

So what really happens when you go abroad just to see Super Junior

Yes, I did it. I saw Super Junior. I saw Lee Hyukjae. I went to Singapore. I became part of the sapphire blue sea.

I originally wrote a thirteen page, blow-by-blow account of our journey to see Super Junior in a Super Show in Singapore. But I am too lazy to type it all in the computer :-/ Writing that was just perhaps a way for me to acknowledge that the things I did last February 18 and 19, 2012 really happened. That I can take that memory with me forever. That I have that experience stored in me, forever to treasure and be grateful for.

Yeah. Maybe that's it.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

The End Is Just The Beginning

I hope you guys had fun reading this blog. I have plans that has something to do with Korea and Petals so watch out for that. I‘m sorry it took me so long to post this. Take care chingus and always have SJ in your hearts everlasting ^^

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Signing Off...Till Next Time

Now that I’m down with my final entry on this blog, I happen to recall those times when I was soo eager to share a piece of me and my SS4SG preparation; but now since it will be last entry I will ever write here I just don’t think that I can do it.

For the umpteenth time; as what I frequently mention in my previous blogs – this will not be the end and I will surely not stop here. Now that for the first time in my life I’ve never seen a clearer view of my direction in life; I will definitely continue fighting for it. 

I was glad to see the boys, so glad to part of the Super Show for the first time and waved with the Sapphire Blue Sea. I can’t thank God and everyone else who made this possible.

Thank You to my family, my friends, my work mates and my supervisors for granting my leave from work for first time that went as long as almost a week. Thank you to Cebu Pacific for the safe flight, to Mr. Daniel Fontanar (Dawnhae’s Dad). Thank you to Singapore for being a NO VISA country.

Lastly to the Boys who made all of it worth it.

Thank You Henry for your beautiful rendition of Lighters.

Thank You Zhou Mi for the song “Goodbye”. It will definitely be not the last time I’ll see you.

Thank You Shindong for dressing as Hyuna and doing my favorite song “Trouble Maker”

Thank You Donghae for “This is Love and “Oppa has Risen” and for closing the doors of the stadium for us to spend the night together.

Thank You Ryeowook for the abs that “Moves like a Jagger” and for your cuteness.

Thank You Leeteuk for being so active and singing “She”. I still hoped that I was the one you hugged at the end.

Thank You Kyuhyun for your sincerity and concern to everyone who came and watched.

Thank You Hyukjae for proving that beauty is truly in the eye of the beholder.

Thank You Yesung for that wonderful song, you never failed to take my breath away.

Thank You Sungmin for your cuteness. You are truly beautiful in my eyes; that sexy performance was so hot.

Thank You Siwon for making me love you even more. 

It was a truly memorable experience. Hope to see you on our next adventures as ELFs.

This has been Missy Airene a.k.a Yerene Kim Choi now Signing Off…

Sunday, March 11, 2012

It's not an "END" but an "AND"

This would be my last post on this blog (as agreed upon the admins), so I guess it's time to say my last words in here.

First, I would like to thank God for the opportunity to see Super Junior again on their fourth Super Show concert, in the foreign land of Singapore. He made it all possible! I would also like to thank my awesomest ELFriends - Dawn, Emmy, J, and Airene, who were with me in this SS4 Singapore journey. You know I can't do this alone. I also thank my family and friends for always supporting me on this decision. I know most of them can't understand as to why I would go this far just to see my boys but I guess they saw how passionate and determined I was and that it's for my happiness. =)

I know I will still be able to see Super Junior again soon. My wish for SS4 Manila is still on the list.
As leader Teukie will always say, "it's not an 'end' but an 'and'" so I foresee another great Super Junior adventure for us. =D

Thank you once again and always stay healthy everyone~! XmaKyu now signing off. =)

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Final Say...

What should I say here? I'm not really sure... I don't want to end this blog but I guess I have to move on.  After SS4SG, I became so dysfunctional since I miss them everyday especially Donghae. I want more of them. Yes, I've become so greedy but if it's the only way to see them again, then just let me be greedy.

Yes, I want more. I mean it. And I will make sure to achieve it. Going to Singapore and watching SS4 has been the happiest days of my life so far but I will make sure to have more in the future. Life is too short for me and I've wasted so many years of my life just doing nothing to make me happy. I thought I was happy being in love with someone but that person was also the reason of my heartbreak. 

I never thought I would reach this phase of my life when 15 boys would be able to control everything. Sometimes I feel I'm too stressed for this but I don't regret anything. They are not just "celebrities" but they have become part of my life. Part of me. They gave me happiness more than I could imagine. They let me experience unconditional love. The kind of love where I don't expect anything but still feel satisfied. They made me feel like I'm not just a fan but a friend whom they care for.

When I started to become an ELF last April 17, 2011, I've always wanted to become part of the sapphire blue sea. And that dream was achieved in Singapore last February 18 and 19, 2012, after my 10th ELF monthsary. I felt overwhelmed being able to be in the same place and breathe the same air with my boys. It felt like I was able to escape from a prison and experienced freedom for the first time. A classmate of mine even asked me how high my dopamine levels were during the concert and I just answered him "much higher than that of metamphetamine!" It was euphoria. It was better than life itself. I may be exaggerating things here, but those were my real feelings. I shouted until my throat hurts, I jumped until I got bruises and I cried until my eyes became dry.

After it all ended, I thought it would be alright. But no. It was not okay. I craved for more. Every time I reminisce all the things that happened, my heart aches. I miss them. I miss him. I want to see them again. If I were born from a rich family, then it would have been easier. But I'm not, so I had to endure all these longing. Every time SM announces new SS4 schedule, I always feel the rush to buy concert tickets. I had to stop myself or else my father would kill me. I'm not really sure when I could get over this or would I be able to.

I thank all my SS4SG travelmates: Hyukcien, Missiwon, Chriskyu and Heemmy for being with me in those days. Thank you for supporting me in my dream. We all have the same dream and being with you has been the best. I hope to do all other fangirling endeavors with you soon. 

I would be even very much willing to spend the rest of my life with you guys and support these 15 boys until the end... 

- dawnhae ^_^ -

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

What happens when you go abroad just to see Super Junior

I have put off writing this for the longest time. Well, because I want to keep those two fateful days/nights forever engraved in my heart (however that is). It seems that writing about it will make me acknowledge that it is all over. That the cynic in me will finally stop taunting me of the two "fateful" days I have to "pay for". And that the sentimental geek in me will really have to unpack and pore over the mounting junk ie memorabilia, photos, banners, lightsticks, stones (?) that I have acquired in my very brief trip.

As of posting this, it has only been 18 days, 12 hours and 58 minutes since February 18th 2012. Gaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't write this


Hello everyone!!!

It has been three weeks since Super Junior's Super Show 4 in Singapore.

The blog has served its purpose in giving us a place to write and/or spazz about our preparation for the Singapore trip. We will forever treasure those days, won't we? Okay, we should.
Anyway, we are closing the blog exactly on March 18.

The site will still be available in the internet, it's just that we will no longer be able to post and or update our posts.

Don't worry, we could still keep on commenting on the posts you know.

So everyone, it's time to write our final words of wisdom (haha). All posts should be in by 12 noon March 18. Thankies.

Till then, it was fun while it lasted ☼

I Will Surely Not Stop Here

               This is a re-post from my very own blog but  I decided to share it here as well as part of this blog...

               It took me 2 weeks to finally decide and write this one out of my mind. It was a long and hard process; getting over the experience was really difficult. Until this very moment every time I close my eyes I can still imagine my self standing inside the stadium cheering at the top of my voice and singing out loud to the songs they were singing in that 2 unforgettable nights.

                Last February 18 and 19 2012, Super Junior held their Super Show 4 in the Singapore Indoor Stadium and I was one of the luckiest people to have been able to join and experience the breath-taking concert.  Fireworks, Water Fountains, loud surround music, VCRs, 37 songs, costume, loads of fan service, extravagant solo stages and Boys themselves made it a Super Show indeed.

                It took me and my friends at least 7 months of preparation for that event. Especially that J, Dawn and I are first timers for this concert.  We specially applied for our passports just to get to Singapore; not to shop and enjoy the scenic places but stalk and meet the Boys in flesh.

                For a first time ELF like me, watching a SUPER SHOW is a must. Watching it in a different country is surely another Big thing or should I say Super Thing. J, Dawn and I were first timers; unlike Emmy and Chrisma who already watched SS3 in Manila. It was also our first time to travel to a different country, for Dawn and J it was their first time to board a plane. When I reached Singapore, I couldn’t explain the feeling. I feel so happy that the Boys and I are now under the same sky and we could almost breathe in the same air. The more it was when I entered the Singapore Indoor Stadium since we are now under the same roof. I never thought that it would be that big, the stage was huge and a lot of people were also there to enjoy the show. I can’t sit still and I was getting excited in every minute that would pass. The moment the lights were turned off my heart stopped from beating too, the much awaited under-water VCR or we call it the 4th gate was then playing on the large LCD screens. The Sapphire Blue Ocean was clearly waving as everyone was calling out the Boys’ names. I was one proud ELF to be a part of the Sapphire Blue Ocean for the first time on my very first Super Show.

                The boys started with one of my favorite song- Superman; the fountain and the fireworks were amazing. I was doing my fan chant and at the same time singing along with them. I remembered crying since I just can’t believe my eyes that I am seeing them. They followed it with the song Opera which has great dance moves, the always present songs Twins and A Man in Love where Kyuhyun again appears and disappears from the scene. After a VCR they once appeared on the stage with another of my favorite song BONAMANA. After that song the Boys introduced themselves and for the first time I heard them talking in person and right before my very eyes. The boys started moving around the stage when they sang You Are My Endless Love.

                I will surely run out of words if I will talk about everything I saw that day, so I will just do it this way. I will follow the Solo Stage Sequence:

Henry – I was not able to see him up close on both days that I watched the concert, maybe it was because they didn’t really come out that often. On the first day he sang Lazy Song and on the second day he sang another song which was Off My Mind. My favorite though was his version of Lighters by Bruno Mars. He played the violin so well, besides that fact that he did sing the song beautifully.

Hyukjae – It was my first time spazzing for Hyuk. Not because I like him less than the others but because J will really kill me if I do. I was amazed by the huge jewel in the center of the stage that reflected the lights that hit it. At first I thought it was Shindong who will come out from it after learning he was doing Trouble Maker and Bubble Pop. But when the music started and everyone else except us started chanting “Lee Hyukjae, Lee Hyukjae” our eyes was like saucers. What a fail! I got the chance to see him closely. He was soo handsome and I never thought that he would look that good considering the fact that the other members would say he was the least good looking. Asking the fans what his name is was so cute, and on the second day he even said he will be a different star; he is Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise, Johnny Depp and Choi Siwon (hahahahaha).I even spazz harder when I heard him talking…I just can’t describe it, but Hyukjae was one of the most memorable person from me that night. “Tis is not shnow…Tis is pepper”

Sungmin – OMG!!! My Sungmin is one of the reasons why I really wanted to see SS4. I wanted to see how pretty (regardless if he’s a man; for me he doesn’t look like one) he is. He is so DAMN (pardon for the word) perfect in my eyes. He was flawless and “milky white skin” it is. I was sort of disappointed by how limited Kyumin (I’m a shipper of this OTP) moments are, but I surely treasured it. There was a time on the first day where they formed a heart together during the “You and I” perf.  Kyuhyun even let Sungmin bite his apple during the “Pajama Party” perf and even stood beside each other parting their bangs. I also got to see him up close and during that time he and Siwon was doing fan service by forming a heart shaped arms together. But my favorite was his Solo Stage, where he sang and dance; sexy dancing. How I wished I was that dancer whom he touched and danced with. Just thinking about it makes me super happy all over again as if I’m back to that very day.

Kyuhyun – He followed Sungmin’s perf (^_^)…  Singing “ Isn't She Lovely” stole a lot of hearts away; including mine. He was the best among all of them when it comes to fan service. He even worried about those who were located almost near the roof if they could still see them from the stage. He made sure to it that he would reach every corner of the stadium. He even stood in front of me for about 5 minutes just to waive at fans and allow them to take his photo. I was trying my very best to shout his name even if my voice was failing, lucky enough he still looked my way for a few seconds and I almost died.

Ryeowook – I don’t really spazz for Wookie that much since for me he is like a child, but don’t get me wrong I still love him. Wookie looked like a doll, he was soo cute and pretty. I also got to see him closely since he also stood in front of me while taking Polaroid photos with fans. He smiles like a child and I really loved how kind he is to fans who were really trying there best to get a photo. During his most awaited perf of the song “Moves Like Jagger” at the first day we were disappointed since we were sitting at the left side and he lifted his shirt at the right; showing his abs. At the end of his first day perf he smiled and even did the peace sign after singing and dancing like an all grown up man which really made me wanna pinch his cheeks. However on the second day of the concert, we were now located at the right side and on that very moment he lifted his shirt on our side we all went crazy and I was like OMG…s*** Wookie wae so hot!!! Even my friend Dawn almost wanted to jump down from where we were located which was about 10 ft or more.

Leeteuk – My favorite leader, person and oppa. He always amazes me, he has never failed to make me feel; a midst all those ELFs who were at the concert that I as an ELF was loved and appreciated. He has bowed at every corner of the stadium and said his thank you to everyone. He even called out the Philippines when he was thanking the international fans who came since my friend Chrisma made a banner that says “We Love SJ Philippines”. I so wanted to get one of the roses he was giving away during his solo stage while singing “She”. I was sort of disappointed when he did not get into a harness and flew above the ELFs while throwing away his roses. Oh how I wish you wouldn’t leave the Boys behind for 2 years. I will always have that respect for you “ahjusshi”.

Shindong – waaaahhhhhhaaaahhhhaaahhhaaa… I was left speechless. His was one of my favorite perfs during the concert. I love the song “Trouble Maker” and I always love Shindong’s antics which made it a total performance for me. During his solo stage while he went at the back of that thing that shows his silhouette people were screaming out loud seeing him doing sexy moves but me and my friends were screaming because we could see Shindong from our spot stripping his dress while preparing for his next song which was “Bubble Pop”. Not to mention his laser show was also Daebak! We even made our banner especially for Shindong.

 Zhou Mi – I love this guy. He always has that amazing charm and talent. Before I went to Singapore I was reading through “tumblr” and saw that some were planning a “black sea” for Zhou Mi. Meaning they would put off their lightsticks on his perf. I was soo glad that did not happen. He did not sing “Because of You" on his solo stage, instead it was a Chinese song which I later found out was part of “Skip Beat’s OST - Goodbye”. J, Dawn, Emmy and I were screaming so hard to cheer for him and on the second day we made a Banner just for him which was very visible according to Chrisma who was seated somewhere else.

Yesung – well Yesung, what can I say to you. You are the very reason I became an ELF because I fell in love with you. I told my self I wanted to be in the Super Show because I wanted to see you in person. I could not bear listening to that song you sang because I don't want to cry and accept the reality that you are not singing it just for me but for everyone else (I know it sounds crazy, but what can I do; I really loved this guy). His song goes like this although it's now in English sub: “There's a man who loves you so much. There’s a man who can't even say I love you. By your side I put my hand out and at a path where you can always reach me. I, who cherishes you, more than myself, am with you.” I soo wanted to see you smile and happy that time. I was glad to see you close. When I get my chance someday I would do my very best to let you know how thankful I am for pulling me out of the dark; thank you for singing that song. It may not be “It Has To Be You” but you will always be that “One Man” for me. “There's a girl, who doesn't know I'm like this. Who receives love, but doesn't even know that it is love. Leaving you, who is as foolish as I and sad. At this moment tears come but I'm happy. It's because you're by my side.” You are always my Kim Yeye.

Siwon – How ironic, first the Man who made me an ELF sang first and next in line was the Man who took me away from him (although I haven’t decided yet). Siwon oppa, you took my breath away. Live hip thrust and his “chocolate abs” in the flesh. I can’t help but admire the man more. While he was singing on his solo stage I just waved my lightstick admiring how he sings his heart out. I was not shouting or calling out his name since he was singing a song of praise. Maybe what I love most about him is his love for God and is never ashamed of showing it. I loved how playful he was during the entire show and how happy he was the whole time. I was also able to see him up close.

Donghae – I know he made my friend Dawn so happy when he sang “This is Love” as part of his solo stage before singing “Oppa has Risen” with Hyukjae. He too was really good looking; I got the chance to see him up close and was amazed at how handsome this guy is. “He looked like a Doll” according to J. He was one of the most manic during the first day; and on the second day he stole a lot of hearts when he said “I locked all the doors so that we could spend the night together”. He even lay down the stage and stretched his arms so that someone could lay down on it too. I know that Dawn wanted to be that girl ^_^.

                What I love most during the concert was the Storm and Our Love perfs. The Boys never fails to have a perf where they get to tribute the ELFs. It was so heartwarming seeing them crying when we get to sing the chorus of “Our Love”. It will surely be an experience to last a lifetime. I will never forget that nights and how much love I felt. I will surely not stop now, not ever. I felt sad when the concert ended the second day since I know that it will also be the end of happiness. But it was just temporary, I will surely see them again and that will be whole new experience. I’ll see them when I see them. I just pray that God will keep them safe until we meet again. I finally realized that my life has a direction, a lifetime promise to the Boys that for every show they will have from this day on, I will surely be a part of it.

Monday, March 5, 2012

My SS4 Singapore Fancams~!

This post from my blog is worthy of being posted here. ^^

I'm very thankful that God blessed me with a lot of luck in Super Show 4 Singapore and successfully captured several fancams! You know that Singapore is very strict about their rules and it was strictly no video/camera recording but I guess God heard my prayers! =)

Without further ado, here are my fancams, recorded by yours truly~






Mr. Simple

Lovely Day


Sorry, Sorry


I know my view isn't that great but I'm just too grateful that I can see my boys again and record some of their performances. I know for sure in the future, I will look back on these videos and reminisce one of my most awesome memories of my life. ♥

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Post-SS4SG - part 2

These are my thoughts and messages for SUPER JUNIOR members after their 2-day concert at Singapore Indoor Stadium... Sorry if it's all messy. I just wanted to place everything before they get off my head. I hope you like it! (This became my new bias list in increasing order after SS4.. lol)

Siwon - holy shisus!!!! wae are your abs so amazing?!?! the moment i saw them live was daebak! waaaaaaaaaahhh!!! your abs are REAL!!!! i also loved how you interact with us elfs! you also made an eyecontact with me and smiled! OTL.. so amazing! i also loved your DO RE MI perf especially when you and shindong almost kissed because of donghae! haha! so funny! i also liked your appearance in hyukjae's part in OOPS when you kissed him in the cheek! kyaaaaaa!!!

Henry - wae are you so cute???????????????? i love your perf! i love your energy! i love your english speaking skills that even the other members, especially siwon, were envious. haha. siwon splashed water to you everytime you speak english. hahahaha... i was teary-eyed during the violin rendition of lighters. i loved its sound. so relaxing. so sweet. so nice. i loved your choice of songs especially in ss4 because i also love bruno mars's songs and seeing you perform them live is a great experience.

Zhou Mi - OTL.. i hate how other people don't appreciate you. in day1 i know only13's did not support you. i did. on day 2, we made a banner for you, henry, shindong and yesung. i hope you saw it. i shouted as much as i could in day2 even though i had a very hoarse voice already. Other ELF are even watching us. I think they are wondering why i was so noisy when your performance was a ballad. i just wanted to show you that i support you. i am just happy that when i shout, other ELF would also shout so there was a loud crowd on your perf in day2. i also believe that you were happy because you smiled after your perf. i really believe you deserve my support so i will continue to support you! 

Shindong - waaaaaaah!!!!! you are so hot! i was laughing hard with your solo coz i could see you taking your clothes off behind the "curtain"!!! i saw you HALF-NAKED TWICE!!! i love your troublemaker and bubble pop perf! so hot!!! one of your dancers is also hot! waah! spazzing so much! but the most amazing thing for me is, we made a "connection" during day 1! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! you looked at me and you tried to conduct how we wave our lightsticks and i followed and you laughed! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Sungmin - so pretty! i couldn't think of you as a guy especially in your Marilyn Monroe cosplay! i love it! especially your interaction with donghae and siwon! so cute! i also loved your failed reactions in the girlfriend thing when the girl chose kyuhyun instead of you. haha. so cute! and the best thing for my is your solo perf! ubersexual!!! i was shouting "PAGPUYO SUNGMIN!!!!!" (behave sungmin!) coz i was so envious of your dancer! haha!

Yesung - i wonder why you look so serious! you are very handsome and i love your stare! the best thing for me was your solo. D.A.E.B.A.K. listening to your voice live especially when you reach those high notes is a very memorable experience because i've always loved your voice especially your ad libs. another memorable for me was when you got wet with the fountain! waaaah! you really looked so cute!

Leeteuk - i fell in love with you. honestly. i know that you are an amazing person but seeing you for real and seeing how humble you are made my heart melt. we were just one meter apart and you looked fantastic! i loved how you sincerely thanked us ELF. you made me love super junior more, made me know that everything is so worth it and made me decide that being an ELF is a lifetime career for me. i also loved your energy so much especially in BONAMANA. on day1 i cried so hard during OUR LOVE and i promised not to cry again in day2 but when i saw you cry, tears just kept rolling from my eyes! wae are you like that!!!! i know you are very tired but you still tried your best to put a fantastic show. thank you so much. i wish i could hug you and tell you that you are an amazing person and you deserve all my love and support as the leader of the best group in the world.

Ryeowook - ASJHFKAJHAJGSJSGAJSGFJAKS!!!!! I SAW YOUR ABS LIVE!!!! i was at the balcony at that time and when i saw it, i swear i really wanted to jump towards the stage! haha. even my friend AIRENE told me that she was so scared that i might jump off. haha. wae are you so cute?! you look like a doll for me! your face is so small and your smile is so mesmerizing. i really envy those ELF with polaroid cameras which you used to take selcas! you made me want to buy one! seeing you one meter apart is just fantastic! gosh! im running out of descriptive words! i know you weren't feeling well in day2 when you denied being splashed on the fountain. sorry if i was one of the ELF who cheered for you to get wet. i really just wanted to see your abs again for the last time. haha

Hyukjae - i don't understand why they call you ugly!!! you are such a beautiful person! so handsome! so cute! so hot! you are an amazing dancer and i love your moves! seeing you one meter apart is daebak! i love your cute smile especially in your solo. i even had LSS (last song syndrome) on your perf. haha. SAY MY NAME... LEE HYUKJAE!!!!! i loved shouting your name! i also had a great time shouting NO! when you wanted us to say TOm Cruise, Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp and CHoi Siwon. hahaha. the best thing is seeing EUNHAE moments live!!!! forever EUNHAE!

Kyuhyun - kyu oh kyu.. wae you so sweet?!?! i loved how you worried for us in Partial Restricted View. i saw you making signs to those in PRV that means "Can you see?" and "I can see you at the back" it really shows your love and concern for ELF. and the best thing for me is seeing you one meter apart and making eyecontact with me!!!!!!!!!!!!! kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!! i almost threw my cap at the stage! i was stunned that i forgot to take pictures at that distance nor even fancam! btw, i love your voice! just like yesung, listening to your voice live is amazing! i wanna hear you sing a song for me because your voice made me fall in love with you! i even knew you weren't feeling well on day 2 coz your eyes were red at your solo perf which i really loved but i know you did your best and your perf was daebak!

Donghae - donghae donghae donghae... are you even real?!?! seeing you live made me realize you are human but i don't understand how such human can have flawless features like you!? i wanted to get you off the stage, put you inside my bag and bring you home!!!! it seems that my eyes were a "donghae focused fancam" in both shows! haha. i think i missed important things from other members because i focused on you more! i laughed when you made a mistake in one of your perfs in day 1, i enjoyed your being so playful especially in day 1 and i was amazed to see you dance live! your way of dancing is different from hyukjae. hyuk's dance moves is so manly and hiphop while for me your moves are so poised and i love it! i only saw you about 2-3 meters away and had no eyecontact with you but since you always stayed on the side where i was, it still made me so happy! i saw you always at my side! waaaaah! on day 1, you made me cry when you sang THIS IS LOVE since i really wanted to see you sing that song live. it's like me watching FUWA SHO live! waaaah! but after crying, i laughed at your OPPA OPPA perf. i was so crazeeee right? haha. and oh, i almost forgot. WHAT WAS THAT VCR BEFORE MR. SIMPLE PERF?!?!?!?!???! i don't need to detail everything about it but i guess you can understand what i mean. i love how you always try to expose Marilyn Mingroe's undies! hahaha! i also loved your poses during your "fashion show" part. ahaha.. i loved your pick up lines! "I love you. I love you. I love you." "I closed all the doors. We can stay here for the entire night." i couldn't remember the other lines but all i know is you really tried to speak in english and that's what amazed me. i love it! i know it's difficult for you but at least you tried and i understood what you wanted to express. and the best thing for me was YOU BEING WET AND SEEING YOUR BODY THROUGH YOUR WET CLOTHES! JAHFALJSDHGJDASGAJDGA;JGDAJDSGHA;ZJDGHAJDGAJSDGHAJGHAJGJAGH;GHDSQDKGHSJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OTL...... i think i should stop... i'll just add if i remember other things related to you. haha

- dawnhae -
It was my greatest escape... 
But it is over...
Now back to reality...

My Super Show Escapade in Singapore

I am having a hard time organizing my thoughts while writing this. I have this post depression again and I just can’t help my self from going blank at times. I even spent the whole day sleeping after I arrived from the trip and wished to see them in my dreams. I also had these flashbacks of the times that SJ was just less than a meter from me…

This trip means so much to me since aside from being it the first time that I get to travel abroad with my close friends and seeing the Boys that has changed my life so much in the flesh, this trip was also the first time that my parents especially my father supported me whole heartedly. He was even excited and kept on reminding me to take good care of my self.
The day before the trip was so stressful since Joan and I need to do the shopping for our food and other stuffs needed for the trip, we also had to look for the money changer and the pump that we were supposed to use for our fan project. We then packed the luggage and made sure we don’t go over our allowed weight. But what stressed Joan the most was that when Emmy’s ticket showed her last name as her middle name and her middle name was her last name. We didn’t know what to do and why does it have to be on the day before the trip. Good thing the customer service representative was so kind enough to help us and solved the problem.
On the very day of the trip I woke up at around 2:30 am and did not want to sleep back. I did my nails that early and made my handhelds and double checked on my things to bring. I even queue my post in twitter so that somehow I would still be able to update without any connection.  By 9:30 I was ready to leave the house to meet-up with Joan and head for Dawnhae’s house, where she still needs to go and do her clinic duty before the trip so we took her bag with us to the airport and meet her up there before check-in.
When all the inspections and interviews were completed, we happily settled our selves in the waiting lounge, waiting to board the plane. While waiting, we took our “before takeoff” photos and laughing together, others were even looking at us. When suddenly I heard my name being called to approach any check-in personnel, they were asking where my other companions are since she only saw two of us who approached her during check in. It was because the others did not submit a copy of the terminal fee paid. That was our first ever epic fail during the trip. But how are we supposed to know when we were not even told about it…
We arrived 30 minutes earlier than expected. Singapore was indeed clean and organized. It wasn’t hard to communicate with others since they speak good English too. We took a lot of copies for their Map so that we could study it for our trip on the next day. I had a good time chatting with Mr. Taxi Driver; he was very friendly and even gave us tips about his country. He even helped us out to look for our hostel.
Thank You Ideal Backpackers for a warm and cozy place to stay. I will surely stay there again when I get back.
We were excited for our day tour before the concert so we decided to leave early and to do that I told Emmy to set the alarm which is a Laughing Out Loud Heechul at 3:30 am. Unfortunately, I think Chul was not in the condition to laugh that loud so I was not able to awake on time, we all started preparing around 5:30 am and only left the hostel around 7am which was still very early for them. Rush hour for them was around 9-10am.
I was so excited to board the train; it was my very first time. We had to buy a one way ticket to Raffles Place so that we can purchase our Tourist Pass that gave us unlimited pass for the MRT and Buses for 2 days. I even almost went off the wrong stop because of my excitement.
The first place we explored was Raffles where the famous Mer-Lion is located. But before we got there we had been walking back and fort the streets since we failed to see any traces of it. We had our first glimpse of the Marina Bay Sands Hotel where the boys were checked-in. We also saw the Singapore Flyer from the spot where the Mer-Lion was so we decided not to go to that place anymore since we were already able to take photos from afar.
Our next stop was Bugis; this place is known for good buys and affordable delicious street foods. But since we were there early and Bugis is more of a night life we ended up eating at McDonalds that does not have any rice at all and we were just having bread and tasteless eggs. We were so hungry since all we had to eat was noodles since our arrival, as Joan would say; “I never knew noodles could taste this good.”
After enjoying our meal we head for the MRT station to ride the trip bound for Marina Bay, we planned of going to Marina Bay Sands Hotel to hopefully stalk the Boys. After the MRT trip we still had to ride the bus to drop us off at the hotel. When we were about to come to a stop, all 5 of us stood up and ready to get off when suddenly the bus halted abruptly that made all of us fell down. Imagine all 5 of us!
We then tried the Sky Park just to get a glimpse of the Infinity Pool hoping that the Boys were there but it was too far for us to see clearly and we bet by that time they were already at the stadium rehearsing. So we decided to go home and prepare ourselves for the first day of the Super Show 4; but before that we toured around The Shoppes at Marina Bay Sands. The Place was very huge. All signature brands that you could think of was there, it was like being at the Orchard Park. There was even a Narnia exhibit and an LG Store that had Siwon’s standee that I did not dare go near it, I can’t imagine what I might do with it.
 At the venue of the concert, we were so amazed with the number of people who came to watch it; some were even trying their luck on available tickets. My friend Dawnhae was tensed and stressed while we both line up to claim the tickets for the first day. It was because we only have one photocopy of her Dad’s passport and credit card which is a must to claim the tickets. It was a good thing that the lady in the counter was so kind to just have it photocopied and returned the original to us to use it for the next day. Before lining up to enter the stadium we decided to eat first at a restaurant who offered Super Junior Menu (who the waitress was a Pinay, she even told us to enjoy the concert) which we did not really get to enjoy since we ate it in a hurry; scared of being late since the concert starts at 6pm. But on our way there we found this Merchandise Sellers and a group of Sungmin Biased who gave photo cards. I was happy to be able to grab one but I was practically looking out for those who were giving out handhelds for fan projects, it would be a good souvenir.  We even saw light sticks sold for 10 SGD each and we all bought one since my special Siwon light stick broke a few hours before the concert. Dawnhae and Joan bought an SS4 T-shirt and Chrisma got herself a SuJu Desk Calendar. I was hoping to get the SS4 official pillow and blanket set but aside from the line being so long, it was no longer available. Guess we were not meant to be.
The stadium was fully packed. It feels so good to be with your fellow ELFs. I was even more amazed when the lights were turned off and I saw the Sapphire Blue Ocean and was able to take part of it. Then the much awaited VCR, the underwater scene.  The boys came out with the first song Superman. The show was great; it feels like I was not breathing the whole time. I lost my voice while it was just the first half but that did not stop me from screaming out loud. I will not talk much about the show since I will have a different post for that. When we got home, my friends and I especially Joan and Dawnhae were at a state of shock; since it was our very first time seeing the Boys in flesh. Joan even slept without changing her clothes.

On the second day of our Singapore trip we decided to spend time at Sentosa, and guess what we found rice. We finally get to eat rice again…hahahahaha. We missed how it tasted; it has been a long time since we had it. We were also able to find a stall that sells T-shirts and key chains with Singapore prints, something to bring home for our loved ones. I felt sorry for Chrisma since I know she wanted to try the Cable car and the Roller Coaster.
It was almost 12 noon when we head back to the hostel and we were supposed to be out by then or else they would think we will be extending. Since we were in such a hurry we rode the wrong train that was heading the other way around. If I was not listening carefully we might have gone further, so we arrived past 12nn at the hostel. It was good that they were so kind to give us time to pack up our things completely.
Joan wanted to ride the bus for the last time so we decided to get on one on our way to the stadium. But looking for the bus was not easy; we had to go from one stop to another to locate it and the waiting time says 20 minutes but that would be from the time that the bus parks at that certain stop. Since all of us were excited we got off the bus too early not knowing it has another stop right in front of the stadium. Hahaha…
We were again early for the 2nd day of SS4, so we decided using the hand-outs that was given to us at the venue; we made improvised hand-held for Zhou Mi, Henry, Shindong, Yeye and towels saying “Mr. Choi Siwon show me Yours” and “Siwon and Donghae take it off.” Joan added some “do it do it” to her Hyukjae towel. Chrisma made her We ♥ SUJU Philippines that luckily caught Leeteuk’s attention when he was thanking the fans and mentions the international ELFs who came to watch the show. I was so happy since at last I met the volunteers who were giving out Wookie’s handheld and inside the stadium were those giving out the “Our Love” handhelds.
Before we finally settled in our day 2 seats we had to plan out very well what to do for our ninja mode. We don’t want to end the show without getting the chance to see them up close. Dawnhae and I left our seats during the “Oppa has Risen” perf and went down where we could go near the ramps where they would stand at times. Dawnhae was on the right side while I was at the left. It feels like heaven when I get to see them all so close (again, I will not talk much about it since it will be another entry).
My heart almost melted when they sang the last song and I knew it would end soon. While saying their farewell I managed to somehow pick-up some more handhelds for Sungmin, Yesung and Hyukjae.
My heart stopped beating again. The trip was worth it, it will always be treasured in my heart. I may not have taken photos or recorded fan cams but the memory I spent with the boys is priceless. While on the plane I can’t stop crying, even up till now. I will always treasure those moments and I will surely not stop there. It may take some time to get over it; it would be hard as well.

See you when I see You Boys. Thank you Singapore for being a part of my most wonderful experience;  I will surely be back, I promise. Thank you to my parents and my whole family who has supported me all the way. Thank You to my friends, Heemmy, Chrisma, Dawnhae, Joan for that bonding we’ve all shared. Thank You to Maeka, Sands, Wenela and Glesh; in you I found a family. Thank You to my special friend (I hope you know who you are) who has helped me make this decision and for making me realize my dreams. Thank you Super Junior for making me feel loved and for completely changing my life and lastly Thank You God for everything. I can’t thank you enough for blessing me this much.

My SS4 Singapore Journey

A repost from my blog:

Ok so I'm back home from Singapore from the awesome 2-night Super Show 4 concert of Super Junior in Singapore Indoor Stadium. I'm not sure how to start this since my mind is too full of the things that happened last weekend but I will try to remember every highlights that I can share. By the way, I broke my Kyuhyun lightstick...huhuhu T.T So I bought another lightstick, the small official one which I used in the concerts.

SS4SG Day 1:
  • I bought a Suju desk calendar! Yey, finally I can replace my 2011 Suju calendar on my desk at work!
  • We ate at a cafe were there were Super Junior concert meal sets and all of us bought the Mr. Simple meat set. Their SS2 concert was playing on the monitor while we were eating. Such a good business trick.
  • There was this rule of no video recording but I couldn't stop myself and with much luck, I managed to do several fancams! ♥
  • There were only two f(x) members. Only Sulli and Amber. How I wished Victoria was present. :(
  • Sungmin's solo was similar from his SS3 solo but I think the one in SS3 was hotter. XD
  • I was kinda disappointed when Teukie was just passing the roses for his solo, not the same in SS4 Seoul where he rides on a chair with harness and drops the roses to the fans.
  • When Donghae sang "This Love" from Skip Beat OST, I jumped at my seat with happiness~!
  • Shindong's solo was cute and cool! He danced to Troublemaker and Bubble Pop. The part where he danced with lasers was really cool!
  • Henry introduced me to the song "Lighters". =)
  • The boys will always attempt to lift Sungmin's skirt on his Manilyn Monroe costume especially Donghae.
  • Kyu as Steve Jobs lol. He was carrying a basket full of apples.
  • I felt betrayed when Kyuhyun let the chosen girlfriend fangirl hug him. I almost jumped over the seats just to have Kyuhyun stay away from the girl. T.T
  • On the DoReMi performance, Siwon carried Shindong and Donghae attempted them to kiss...hahaha. Now I know that Siwon can carry Shindong. ;p
  • Shindong tried to make the fans follow his directions for the waving of the lightsticks using his mic from slow to fast waving. The fans were like crazy following him..hehe.
  • The white light project was so cool! 
  • I finally heard Yesung and Kyuhyun's adlibs in  Sorry, Sorry live.
  • I just felt that everyone looked more mature this time. =)

SS4SG Day 2:
  • Luckily, there were still official merchandise left and those were the bag and the t-shirt and I did not hesitate to buy both.
  • This time, I did not do fancams and really enjoyed the concert to the fullest!
  • I saw each of the boys faces up close! I was seated in the second row of the terrace on the right side! I felt I was having an eye contact with everyone!
  • I saw Wookie's abs this time in "Moves Like Jagger" since I'm already at the right side! Haha can't believe that he's been working out his body!
  • Teukie cried when the fan project for the song "Our Love" was revealed. Everyone was holding the heart banner with "Suju+ELF Our Love" message. It was really touching.
  • The white light project was cooler this time as more white lights were emitted! 
  • I can't forget Kyu oppa's smile and wave at me. =D
  • On the DoReMi performance for day 2, Shindong carried Siwon this time...hahaha! 
  • I threw my stuffed toy on the stage just in case they might bring it with them. XD 
  • They were playing with the fountains in the stage! They look all wet and hot..haha
  • The most highlighted part on every thing that I experienced was that when Teukie started mentioning countries of the international ELFs that attended the SS4SG. He pointed at my "WE ♥ SUJU PHILIPPINES" banner and said "Pillipin". I AM VERY PROUD AND HAPPY, I COULD HAVE CRIED. T.T

Overall, it was a BLAST. It was one of the best weekends I had! Super Junior never fails to make me happy. I thank God for granting this wish of mine to see Super Junior again. I thank the awesomest ELFriends I have, Joan, Dawn, Airene, and Emmy for making this project SS4 Singapore a success. I thank my family and my friends for supporting me on my decision to watch SS4 Singapore. I thank Super Junior for always making me happy. They made me travel outside of the country for the first time. ♥